LittleFlower

And the positivity is ongoing. This weekend just gone was such a great one. Friday night with the Bruce Springsteen concert, Saturday night at my friends bbq (I didnt eat there, I had dinner before I went and just went to meet up with the girls) and after the bbq, I went in to town to meet up with my boyfriend and his friends in the pub. They had been out since 2pm watching the Heinken Cup Final (rugby final… Munster won…….YEEEAAAYYYY!!!!) and had then gone to Croke Park for the Ireland soccer match. So by the time I met them at 11:30pm, they were on their last legs.

Being the sensible one in the group, I made sure there were pints of water galore on the table for the lads and myself. Boy, were they glad I did that the next morning…. they were all still hanging, but at least no one was sick!

Yesterday was lovely. Spent the morning and afternoon with my boyfriend and his friends, and then spent the evening watching gaelic football on the telly with himself…perfect.

So I’m all set for another fantastic week. Dad’s coming up to stay with me on Friday night. We’re going to see Celine Dion in Croke Park on Friday night and really looking forward to it. And next weekend’s another Bank Holiday weekend, so I’ll have the following Monday off…. fantastic!

One kinda crappy thing did happen at the weekend though…… In my last blog I told ye how I finally fit into a size 10 (US size 8 ) and how happy I was…. how I was finally beginning to accept the “new me”. Well, when Dad phoned for our weekly chat, he put Mom on the line after he was finished. I was still so happy with my progress, that I gushed about how I had fitted into a size 10 and was so happy. BIG mistake. She said that it was disgusting. She said that I shouldnt be losing weight. She went on and on…. in the end I just put the phone down and only picked it up when I heard it was silent on her end. I had to bite my tongue and not remind her how she is the same height as myself, and a size 10 too.

I felt awful when I hung up. And then I thought…. to hell with her. To be honest, if you listen to sabotaging people like that, you WILL fail. You have to listen to yourself, be happy with yourself, and not give a damn what other people think of you. Some people just dont like change. If they see a change in you, it somehow causes cognitive dissonance in their own heads (this is my theory anyway!) and they will do everything in their power to make you fail, go back to the way you were, thus re-establishing the “norm” for them.

To be honest, it would have been great to have gotten a thumbs up from Mom…. considering she’s the one who started me dieting in the 1st place when I was 11 years old. But I’m a big girl now….. I dont need her approval. BUT…. I cant WAIT to get to my goal weight, go home, and show her how great I feel and how great I look.