LittleFlower

So this morning was the first morning in weeks that I didn’t weigh myself 1st thing in the morning….and again when I got home from the gym before going to work and before my breakfast. I would normally weigh myself twice every morning to see how much I lost in my work out. Then again at lunch time I would weigh myself. I would thne weigh myself when I got home from work, and again at night before I go to bed.

Looking at what I just wrote…. wow…. obsessive or what!

Today I have not weighed myself at all. Not in the morning, not at lunch time… at all. I’m not going to let myself weigh myself either when I get home. My weighing scales is out in my room… but it’s acting as my reminder of my weigh in on Friday. It’s acting as my motivator to remind me to be extra good this week (because my food this weekend was awful!).

Today at work has been so quiet. I’m very bored, so food isnt far from my mind at the minute. I have a slimfast snack packet, but dont want to open it until 4pm. Any earlier than that and I’ll be starving by finish time (5:30pm).

……………… has been fantastic! Dad was up yesterday to help my sister move back home to Kerry for the summer. We went out for dinner with 2 of my aunts to an indian.Perfect choice….. had chicken biryiani. And they put every part of the dish out sperately so you get to choose how much rice, chicken and suace you put on your plate. So I skipped on the starter… only had a 1/4 of naan bread…. and only ate half of what I was given for a main course…. and NO dessert.

Was a great night. Dinner went on for 3 hours and I went into town after to meet up with my boyfriend and all his teacher-friends after. Was so much fun.

oooooooohhhh and I booked a holiday to Sardinia. My boyfriend and I are going when I’ve a week off in July. I will be at 120lbs (or within 5lbs of that) by that time.

I’ve also put my weighing scales away for this week until Friday again. I was weighing myself way too frequently. So I’m going to work my little booty off this week and will have a great weigh in on Friday again (*thinking positive thoughts!)

It’s my boyfriend’s birthday on the 23rd. I’m not a romantic….. I never know what to get people for birthdays, Christmas etc. So I’m at a bit of a loss for him. Did find him his favourite song on a greatest hits album which was hidden in a dusty corner of a music shop in Dublin….but other than that, I’m at a loss for him. I was thnking about getting him somethike a book along the lines of “Irish for Dummies” or something (because he’s an Irish teacher in a really horible, rough school)…but it’s a bit close to the Leaving Cert and Junior Cert exams, so he wouldnt appreciate the humour……. so this week I’ll be stressing a bit about it…. any ideas?!

Oh and hope everyonehad a fantastic weekend, and yer all set for the week ahead!!

Ok so, it hasnt been that long…..but when I dont blog everyday like I used to it feels like an eternity since I last wrote.

So this week I’m down another 3lbs…that’s 8lbs lost since I started slimfast. I feel so much better about myself. I know that in another 2 weeks I’ll rech my mini goal of 130lbs and I know that I’ll be 120lbs by the time I’m packing for Sardinia for a week away with my boyfriend!

It’s all positive today….. this week has been a big negative mood-wise, but I’m feeling good today. Can’t wait for the weekend. Dad’s coming up to Dublin to pick up my sister and take her back home to Kerry for the summer (lucky college students with their 3 months off in the summer!). So we’re planning dinner with him and my aunts on Saturday night. I’m a bit aprehensive about eating out….. but it’ll be ok. Stick with the chicken…. grilled not fried…. with salad and no dressing…… it’ll be ok.

Today at work one of the secretaries made chocolate shortcake squares and brought them in for coffee break. I had to try one. They smelled so yummy. Now I’m kinda regretting it. My tummy’s feelin a bit funny…. it’s not used to that kinda food anymore. Since I started slimfast, I’ve been living off the shake in the morning, meal bar for lunch, and a really light dinner after work (with 2 or 3 snacks thrown in). I havent had anything as sweet as that in 2 weeks. It’s funny what a difference 2 weeks can make both physically and mentally.

Mentally, I dont even want to blow my diet this weekend the way I normally do. I actually want to stay on track and make the most out of every day. Not focussed on food, but focussed on everything else that’s going on around me.

We’ll see how it goes.

Hope everyone has a great Friday!!!

“What does a dog say when you rub it’s bum with sandpaper……ruff ruff”

I was just thinking about how tough this morning was to get into the gym and do a quality work out when that came to me…..it was a joke my Grandad told me when I was little.

Well…wow….this morning…..I’m even sweating just thinking about it! Was able to get up no problem…made it to the gym in good spirits and ready to show the crosstrainer and treadmill who’s boss. But then the dumbass sports centre attendant didnt open the doors until 7am (that’s the time I should be starting my workout to be ready in time for work). Not a good start!

So made it up to the gym eventually, and logged a really good 30min work out on the crosstrainer (burned 487cal). Then I went on the treadmill. My legs were not functioning this morning. I felt bad. I felt tired. I really did not want to be on that thing. So I lasted 15min (burned 157cal) and then went on the corsstrainer again to make up the other 15min I missed out on with the treadmill (another 187cal burned)…all in all….I did good. But I’m still whacked as I’m sittinghere at my computer at work.

There was birthday cake at work…homemade….sponge with shortcake top and real chocolate chips on the top and in the cake. So I had the thinnest slice I could find. I am NOT cutting myself out of social things like this anymore. It just makes me resent my diet and want to quit. So I’ve told myself that that slice of cake has to hold me over until lunch time at 1pm when I can have my meal bar and slice of toast (I’ve had to add some extra pieces of food like that to the plan because I was actually starting to lose weight too quickly and was getting things like “ascent weakness”). And I might be going training tonight….so that will also help to burn off some of the cake.

But you know what….I really enjoyed that cake with my mug of tea!

This evening my boyfriend has promised to wear his full dobok (taekwon-do training suit) so he can help out with the class if I end up taking it again. He’ s a black belt as well. I told him last week I wasnt going back to the class again if I end up teaching in it. I want to get back to training, and when you’re instructing the class, you cant get a workout in. He said that he loves training with me….and I really like training with him too. So he said that he’d split the 2 hours teaching with me if we get landed with it again this week.

Kinda looking forward to tonight now! Cant wait for the college summer exams to be over so the old faithfulls will be back in the class and I’ll have a few more people to spar!

Hope everyone’s having a great Wednesday! Mid week people….need I say more?!

Hey there, I may have cancelled my last account (becasue my actual name was googleable to this web site)…but it’s still me…Little Flower! I’ve sent a message to all my buddies about the change and applied to be their buddy once again….Lyssa’s already accepted me (*hug*!).

It’s a pain having lost all my previous blogs, all of your comments and my weight loss history so far….but….didn’t want my boss to google my name coming up to my review meeting when they decide  to make me permanent…and coming across my blogs and me pouring my little heart out! (I used to work with HR companies…so I know they do google you coming up to interivews and reviews!)

So it’s the same old me……….! Just to let ye know!