Doctors Appointment
Yesterday wasnt so bad… I had a brief lapse in my diet plan. When I got in from work, i ate a plain wrap without even thinking… and then a big bowl of museli with skimmed milk. I got myself out of the kitchen straight away, but not before I grabbed my big 2litre bottle of sparkling water from the fridge. I sat on the couch in the sitting room with the door closed and let the fatigue take over me. I’d the house to myself (both my housemates are abroad at the minute) so I just curled myself up into a ball and fell asleep on the couch.
Woke up this morning and was too tired to get to the gym before work. Put on a Billy Blanks dvd, but couldnt bring myself to do it. So glad I’ve made a doctors appointment for later on today. Want to talk to her about the colour change in my skin on my face, this insame tiredness that’s getting way too frequent, my lack of motivation to do anything, forgetfullness, irritability, feeling low…. and this damn constant hunger that drives me to desperation 3 out of 4 weeks a month. I’ve a horrible feeling she may think I’m a hypochondriac or something and just fob me off. I had bloods taken 3 months ago, and they came back normal. But I dont feel normal. I dont feel like myself. I cant put my finger on it……
Think I may just finish what work I’ve left to do on my desk this morning and make an excuse to get out of here and go home. I dont know what’s with me today. Was talking to my boyfriend last night and told him I needed him back up here to give me a good boot in the bum to get me to cop onto myself and get myself back to normal. My Mom wants to come up from Kerry to go to my doctor’s appointment with me, but I told her to stay at home, I can manage this myself.
I’m just worried buddies that I wont get anywhere with this appointment. That I’ll be left feeling stupid, and more down, and more……. I dont know….. guess I’m just running on autopilot and cant see any sense in what I’m doing. It all just feels a bit pointless.
Right, I’m going to shut up now and try to finish my work.
Happy Friday everyone!
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I’m worried after reading your blog this morning. If this doctor is making you feel this way, please please find another doctor.
It does sound like something is wrong, you are usually such a high spirited active girl. Maybe its a big of depression? I couldn’t begin to make a diagnosis, but I can say this, if it were me….I’d find another doctor. As many doctors as it takes until they find an answer, thats if this doctor today shruggs you off.
Sometimes its a good thing having Mom come along
Moms are good at asking questions we don’t always think of, plus you’ll have the love and support 
You take care, and please keep us posted. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers today. Big Hugs…
I don’t know what it is, but we always seem to be on the same crap path. I for one cannot even say the word “doctor” anymore. It just makes me sick. Whatever happends this afternoon. Get the answers you need. Its horrible feeling like this all the time. Feel better.
Please check with your dr before you go further. This has me concerned. Please take care, hugs, Kama
