A blog for myself…. not motivational….
I havent written in a few days. I’ve checking in and reading everyone’s blogs, just havent posted anything myself.
Reason being, I’m in a slump. It hit pretty fast, out of the blue, swept me off my feet, and I’ve been going with the flow since. I thought I was doing pretty good food-wise. Eating healthy meals…. NO dominos (eventhough I really really wanted it), working out after work. Got on the scale this morning and saw what I saw. I held it together until I got into the shower and then I broke down. Every bad feeling I could ever feel about me, my life, the way I look just flooded over me. I had to be careful not to cry too loudly cuz my housemates were about…. one of which was pacing outside the bathroom door trying to make it clear he wanted me to get out so he could brush his teeth.
Got out when the shower ran cold and went up to my room… sat down, read a few blogs and still felt miserable. My leg’s in bits after the tag match last night. I didnt get much sleep because of back and leg pain. It’s gone back to the way it was when I couldnt walk for 6 months.
Right now what’s running through my head is that I have to take it easy on the cardio until my leg and back settle. No running. No crosstrainer. No taekwon-do. No tag. And if the scale looked like that this morning, after me working so hard this week and being so good…. what will it be after a long period of not being able to exercise?
I feel awful. I feel fat and awful. I feel like giving up on everything. This morning was the 1st morning in over a year I skipped breakfast. I’m just miserable. I just want to go home from work and go back to bed, only I know I cant. Today is the start of my 2 weeks off work. I should feel better than this. But things are going wrong in the office, I feel like crap and I just want to give up.
I love reading the blogs here, but I dont think it’s helping me anymore. I might just check in every so often on my buddies and drop them a line or 2…. but for the moment, I’m taking a step back until I get my head back on track, and stop feeling so bad.
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Hugs…don’t give up. We are here to help you. Take a break from all your exercise and just be. Once your body feels better then you can slowly add to your routine again. Remember pms is raring it’s ugly head and you are very emotional, but it’s nothing you can’t handle.
Hey I know exactly how you feel. I have been feeling that way for two whole days now all because of some stupid scale. Never give up on yourself. You are valued. Just do whatever exercise your body can handle. We are here for you. Have faith. You can get through this.
You can get through this. I had a pity party for myself all week last week so I know how you feel. Just take some time, get it all together, seek out God and you will be fine. We are all here for you.
I hate hearing that you are so discouraged. You have the next 2 weeks off… time to relax, enjoy, and do things for YOU! There’s no need to beat yourself up because of what that little box told you! PM me if there is any way that I can help!
~tina~
Yeah!!!! what they said!
we all get down, we all hate that stupid box on the floor sometimes….
keep the faith
keep doing what you know is right
just keep plugging along.
reach out to someone else — it always helps to help other people — ESP when we don’t FEEL like it! get your mind off the scale, and just do right.
love you!!!!
I hate to see you so down, it is not like you. PMS can be a killer for all of us, as a matter of fact I have PMDD which is a dysphoric disorder ontop of PMS, I used take meds for it but can no longer afford them. You will get through this and the wieght on the scale might not be wieght,your body may be retaining fluid from your monthly and the injuries. I hate the scale as it becomes this monster in our heads and dictates how we are to feel just be registering a number. Don’t do it for a certain wieght or number, do it for health and then you wont feel so discouraged over that stupid number. Did you know that you could take one person and wiegh them and at the same number three different times in life and they would look different each time. You could have more muscle mass which would make you look different than someone else at the same wieght but flabby. Look in the mirror wearing your favorite outfit and decide if you still look good. No one knows what that stupid scale says but you and it. Buck up little flower put a smile on your face and do something fun, forget that stupid scale.
awe, i hear you so loud and clear. i have that smae back and leg stuff that can happen to me and did again last year when i was working out really hard and still not losing much weight. it can be sooooooo frustrating and discouraging. it’s ok to break down and it’s ok to slow down. you know what happened to me? last year i was doing kickboxing,boxing, aerobics, elliptical, bike, etc then my knee started acted up (on my bad leg) and eventually my back, too. i HAD to stop it. Then later that year i started here and i started exercising again but in a way that fit my body. i also really truly ate differently and i lost weight and my body didn’t hurt. now, you know i’m knocked up now so it’s all different, but it reallt was so remarkable - i lost the power workouts but i also lost weight better when i truly listened to my bod. (i did do some phys therapy as well - 2 days a week weight training which stabilized the back again). hugs to you! and cry more if you need to - then take a nice walk.
Thank you so much guys…. I really needed those comments today. Tomorrow will be better. Thanks a million.
I am glad you wrote this blog and got out your pain and frustration. Better to see it written than hide and cry and eat.
Did I tell you that I had to give up tae kwon do (red belt) 6 years ago because of my knee? With all the jumping and kicking my knee was hurting. Then I had to give up running 3 miles every day. Then I had to give up aerobics. Still, there are things you can do in a gentle and loving way and believe me, what Debbie said is true. Your body will respond better if you stop hurting it with vigorous exercise. I still managed to lose 12 pounds in 4 weeks with painful tendonitis.
I know that the part of frustration and feeling like giving up is the necessity to let go of some ambitious dreams, especially in your young age. Well, it’s temporarily and you can be back on track in a few weeks. Or you can choose to be ambitious about the health of your body rather than results in competitions.
Physical limitations, very often, open the door to new ways of being in the world, to new discoveries - patience, creativity, gentle love, and happiness that is about treating yourself well and with respect.
I always think about Marge in her wheelchair who keeps an active life with exercise and compassionately supports us, able-bodied people, with her energy and advice. She lost weight and improved her health and she is a living proof of applying love and knowledge to make incredible changes.
i haven’t commented in your blogs before, but i’ve loved reading them. i hope things get better for you soon- you have an injury, i think you said? not totally sure whats going on, but please don’t give up! it sounds like you’ve been through a lot lately, and i totally understand the frusteration… i wish i could be there for you and give you a hug, i wish i knew more so i might be able to help. i think about how i would feel if i had to give up what i’m doing now… and i think i’d be really upset. but… are there any other activities that you could do that wouldn’t aggrevate your injury further? i know its not high impact, but what about yoga, or swimming, or water arobics? i hope things start to look up soon. hugs and i’ll be sending positive thoughts your way.
Glad you blogged and vented, that is so important. You are not alone, we all feel like this at times. Rest and get yourself better, and do what you can do, it will pay off, hugs Kama
