Back again
Well, I took a few days off from the site. I was up to my eyes with work, and college started on Monday night and I wasnt feeling myself. I still dont feel right. I just cant seem to snap out of this one. I’m not as bad as Saturday and my eating is back under control…. but I’m not happy. I’m mellow…. I think that’s the best way to describe it. Neutral mood. Suppose that’s better than being crazily depressed and low like I was all weekend!
So yeah, college started for me on Monday night. I’m doing a degree in Psychology, but I have to do it part time at night so I can work full time to put myself through college. Each semester I have to take 4 modules. I thought this would be a piece of cake, considering I took 8 modules each semester when I did physiotherapy.
Boy, was I wrong. This semester it’s all Introduction courses. Intro to Psychology, Intro to Cognitive Psychology, Intro to Freud and Intro to Philosophy (which is facinating by the way). And so far, from just the initial lecture in these… I have 22 books to read, 3 essays to write and an MCQ exam in 2 weeks time. Essays and MCQ are worth 30% of my final grade in these subjects. Now, panic has yet to set in. I’m finding it hard to get back to being able to study. I tried to do some yesterday before my lectures, but I was way too jaded from work. It is going to be so tough to do this course and work full time. I really want to do well this year to get me off to a good start. If I get lower than a 2.1 in my exams I may have to consider asking my employer to let me go part time…. not sure if they’ll let me…. we’ll see. I dont have to decide this until after Christmas exams anyway.
On a plus note… having something to do in the evenings (either lectures or library) keeps me from eating. Literally, all I had the last 2 nights from 5pm - bed time was an apple. Dont have time for anything else. And I’m stressing at the moment so my appetite isnt 100% (thank goodness).
Ok… going to go do a bit of work now. Just wanted to let ye know I hadnt fallen off the face of the earth into a tub of Ben & Jerry’s.
Oh and it’s Wednesday…. just remembered that. This day just looked a little brighter 
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Don’t worry about not being as hungry as you were. It is probably related to stress.
You will be tired as it is incredibly hard to work and do a degree in the evening so I take my hat off to you on that. I definitely can relate to doing a degree part time. I decided to do my DPhil when the children were young, and that was a really hard slog. It made my previous degrees in my footloose and childless younger days seem a walk in the park by comparison.
Don’t worry about what may or may not happen in the future. If you worry you are only going to get a 2:1 or lower, it could be self prophesising, so don’t tempt fate.
I think Rae (lovelite) may also be reading psychology.
I haven’t been on as much lately, will probably only get to blog a couple of times a week for a while, but I will be thinking of you and sending good vibes your way whenever I turn my face towards Dublin.
Have a great week. I’d suggest you try not to internalise and dissect everything too much. It’s a common problem when you are studying subjects as yours, as you will gain greater insight to yourself and the people and world around you.
Also, I’d agree that Philosophy is fascinating. Totally absorbing and will give you a hunger to find those elusive answers to the big questions, but only if it doesn’t get bogged down by dogma.
I’m taking the semester off, working, kids and going half-time last semester (while homeshooling one kid) was just too much, I got an F in one class… and just don’t want to face school right now, not to mention $!!
Plan, plan, plan… you can do it!!!
I am right there with you. I too am back at school now for about a month. I am taking 15 credits, which is a first for me. Plus I have a full time job, husband, and three kids who all have after school actvities. I hit the same low that you did. It was all so overwhelming that I felt like I wanted to just give up on everything…..school, weightloss, ect. In fact I stayed away from here for weeks and let 10 lbs pack back on, which even depressed more. We just have to take one day at a time. Make sure that we plan and know that this will not last forever. I just keep telling myself 7 more months until I graduate and this will all be worth it. Just don’t give up on yourself, because you are so worth living a healthy lifestyle.
glad to see you’re back –
hang in there — you can do this!!
great job on the eating sensibly, keep it up!
grrrr, i think my comment got lost in cyberspace….
here’s a recap…
glad you’re back,
you can do this
great job on eating sesibly!!
Wow, what a load! Good luck to you, and thanks for all the wonderful comments you have left me.
Hang in there, and be good to yourself in non food ways. Glad you are back.